Saturday, January 19, 2013

Finally at the end of the road.

Don't know what else to say..speechless.. being left just like that. for how many times which i couldnt remember. u left me thousands times since i met you. but i still keep waiting on you. until the last conversation you chased me out of your life. it hurt me so bad.. so far this is the worst ever feeling i have. Being chased out of someone life that u love so much. I'm in the middle of a bridge. It's like I could not turn back or continue my walk. This is hurting me so bad.. I swear I don't want you anymore in my life as you don't want me too...u chased me out of your life. thank you. I hope in the future you won't get chased out by your loved one, one day... finally, i arrive at the end of this road. looking back at this long's just so long..couldn't see at the other end but i have it in my heart. till here..bye.

Monday, February 27, 2012

It's Over...

It's has been more than 3 weeks nahar. Get over it! Get a life. You have too. Well this someone has already moved on. why not you.. Haiiihhh..i tried to forget all of these, but i can't help it. I've been in love with you for 5 years..and since that i looked at no one but you..but you, kept hurting me.. and now, everything has over. I'm trying to pull out all the strength that I have in this soul to move on. I tried to chill out with my friends..but it seems you've been living here in my heart,in my mind for too can't be vanish just like that. hummm... somehow, sooner or later i'll make a move and live this life without you. Good luck and all the best in your life NND...

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Something is better unsaid.

Hello thereee... well, been so long I haven't update anything in here.. It's been more than 3 weeks since i broke up with this someone. too bad..but that's life. sometimes, something cannot be forced to go the way as what we dream. I've just lost someone I used to adore so much for 5 years...and now all of these things started to fade away. I know cub, maybe, u have move on there..find someone else far better than me. congratulations. now, i learn everything bout living independently without someone beside me. i think im lost. I know that this is my decision.. im just feeling lost. Behind the smile, the laugh everyday i live with, no one knows how much this hurt's freaking bad in my heart. i did sumthing that is outta of my control. I'm totally lost. right now im trying to find a way to live my life on my own...haihhhh... take care cub.. i'm gonna miss you.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

one month left.

Time is precious. now i really appreciate time..Only left one month for us. Cub....don't leave me. ;( afraid to go on with this life alone. nobody understands me like you know me know every part of me. the bad and the good in me. Cub, i've no one else that could understand me better than u. Why you have to leave me..why this have to end. You know, every time i meet you, deep in my heart, i hide my tears my sadness. I'll be missing u so much, ur smile, how u care bout we used to quarrel over small things..i miss u cub.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Your last msg.

........."Gi mamposlah u dgn perangai u".. humm..nice words. Sakit mendalam. Dulu bila aku duk marah2 mcm ni..kau yg duk nasihat aku..mbebel kata jgn duk baran. Cakap jgn ikut mulut, jgn ikut marah je. Tp skang tgk la sapa yg buat prangai mcm ni. wow... Tuhan tu ada wey..lain kali jgn ckp org. Bile kat hometown prangai dia nih lain sgt. baik je dgn aku..even bile kita gadoh sikit, dia la plg cool, xnk gado2..msg aku slalu..(sbb apa nak tau? sbb dia lonely kat sana kawan2 jauh) tp bila balik shah alam..humm..x terkata. nauzubillah perangai dia. berlagak x ingat dunia. even sebelah mata pun x pandang aku. x heran lgsg lah aku ada ke x dlm hidup dia. layan aku mcm taik. bila aku tanya baik2, napa x msg..jawapan nak pedas aje. dulu bleh je slalu msg aku, skang mcm2. 1001 alasan bg pastu bila bertanya skit..mmg naik angin satu badan mcm aku ni dah bunuh kucing dia (issue kucing mmg plg dia pentingkan, sbb tu bg contoh kucing dia) xpe. Allah tu ada. Hari ni hari dia..Ingat lah..manusia xkan sentiasa berada kat atas. Satu hari, bila2 masa je boleh jatuh..

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

speechless but this lyric really meant something.

I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn somethng new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

Monday, November 14, 2011


few months back before December,28th,2008. Started to feel awkward between us.however I loved those feeling. hummm...mcm2 yg aku dah lalui. Sakit, perit, pedih, panas sume skali dlm satu masa pun aku pernah rasa. Xpe. Aku sume dugaan kat aku. org kate sbb cinta manusia boleh binasa gak. well that's me. Aku lalui sume ni sorang2. Xde siapa pun yg aku ngadu setiap kali di hurt teruk mcm tu. Aku pernah demam satu mlm..duduk dlm bilik berapa hari senyapkan diri..menangis dlm gelap..terduduk atas lantai sampai x tertahan sakit kt hati ni. Ya Allah, punyelah teruk yg aku hadapi ni. Derita sgt. Aku tetap sabar tunggu. X pernah lgsg give up. Apapun skali dia buat. aku senyap aku sabar. selama 24 bulan lebih aku tanggung semua ni.. airmata ni sampai kdg2 dah x sanggup nak keluar..aku tetap tunggu. at last 2 tahun dah berlalu,aku dapat sekejap rasa happy. tp sekejap je..lepas tu dah stahun berlalu sumenye hanya dipinjamkan sekejap je kat aku. Now, I'm feeling so hurt again. Terlampau sakit. Kali ni aku rasa lg teruk dr yg dulu2. Xtau mmg aku rasa sakit sgt.. Ya Allah, berilah aku kekuatan utk hadapi semua cabaran ni. Lepas ni aku bertaubat..xnk ulang lg kesilapan ni semua. terlampau sakit. I wish I will never fall in love again. Bercinta mmg indah, tp kalau sakit, mmg sakit sgt..derita hidup. Aku tau hati dia hati kering x pernah rasa apa yg aku rasa. sbb slama ni dia je yg buat aku. mcm2 dia dab buat kat aku. mmg derita hati dgn perasaan aku. Ya Allah, aku memohon kpd mu kau lupakanlah ingatan ku semua ini terhadap dia. Lupakanlah ingatan ku ni semua. padamkan lah emmori ini semua. aku dah xnak ingat lgsg apa2 psl aku dgn dia. I wish I could move on..