tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-31812841022777621032024-02-07T12:25:53.356+08:00Life isn't about youThoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.comBlogger40125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-81886418972338475862013-01-19T12:00:00.002+08:002013-01-19T12:00:41.698+08:00Finally at the end of the road.Don't know what else to say..speechless.. being left just like that. for how many times which i couldnt remember. u left me thousands times since i met you. but i still keep waiting on you. until the last conversation you chased me out of your life. it hurt me so bad.. so bad..so far this is the worst ever feeling i have. Being chased out of someone life that u love so much. I'm in the middle of a bridge. It's like I could not turn back or continue my walk. This is hurting me so bad.. I swear I don't want you anymore in my life as you don't want me too...u chased me out of your life. thank you. I hope in the future you won't get chased out by your loved one, one day... finally, i arrive at the end of this road. looking back at this long road..it's just so long..couldn't see at the other end but i have it in my heart. till here..bye.Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-1360721115825367902012-02-27T21:01:00.003+08:002012-02-27T21:08:26.212+08:00It's Over...It's has been more than 3 weeks nahar. Get over it! Get a life. You have too. Well this someone has already moved on. why not you.. Haiiihhh..i tried to forget all of these, but i can't help it. I've been in love with you for 5 years..and since that i looked at no one but you..but you, kept hurting me.. and now, everything has over. I'm trying to pull out all the strength that I have in this soul to move on. I tried to chill out with my friends..but it seems you've been living here in my heart,in my mind for too long..it can't be vanish just like that. hummm... somehow, sooner or later i'll make a move and live this life without you. Good luck and all the best in your life NND...Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-35513301179572571592012-02-21T00:16:00.002+08:002012-02-21T00:24:51.281+08:00Something is better unsaid.Hello thereee... well, been so long I haven't update anything in here.. It's been more than 3 weeks since i broke up with this someone. too bad..but that's life. sometimes, something cannot be forced to go the way as what we dream. I've just lost someone I used to adore so much for 5 years...and now all of these things started to fade away. I know cub, maybe, u have move on there..find someone else far better than me. congratulations. now, i learn everything bout living independently without someone beside me. i think im lost. I know that this is my decision.. im just feeling lost. Behind the smile, the laugh everyday i live with, no one knows how much this hurt me..it's freaking bad in my heart. i did sumthing that is outta of my control. I'm totally lost. right now im trying to find a way to live my life on my own...haihhhh... take care cub.. i'm gonna miss you.Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-30572108194660266342011-11-27T01:56:00.002+08:002011-11-27T02:01:34.325+08:00one month left.Time is precious. now i really appreciate time..Only left one month for us. Cub....don't leave me. ;( please....im afraid to go on with this life alone. nobody understands me like you do..you know me well..you know every part of me. the bad and the good in me. Cub, i've no one else that could understand me better than u. Why you have to leave me..why this have to end. You know, every time i meet you, deep in my heart, i hide my tears my sadness. I'll be missing u so much, ur smile, how u care bout me..how we used to quarrel over small things..i miss u cub.Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-64297393666675498192011-11-16T10:11:00.002+08:002011-11-16T10:17:54.369+08:00Your last msg.........."Gi mamposlah u dgn perangai u".. humm..nice words. Sakit mendalam. Dulu bila aku duk marah2 mcm ni..kau yg duk nasihat aku..mbebel kata jgn duk baran. Cakap jgn ikut mulut, jgn ikut marah je. Tp skang tgk la sapa yg buat prangai mcm ni. wow... Tuhan tu ada wey..lain kali jgn ckp org. Bile kat hometown prangai dia nih lain sgt. baik je dgn aku..even bile kita gadoh sikit, dia la plg cool, xnk gado2..msg aku slalu..(sbb apa nak tau? sbb dia lonely kat sana kawan2 jauh) tp bila balik shah alam..humm..x terkata. nauzubillah perangai dia. berlagak x ingat dunia. even sebelah mata pun x pandang aku. x heran lgsg lah aku ada ke x dlm hidup dia. layan aku mcm taik. bila aku tanya baik2, napa x msg..jawapan nak pedas aje. dulu bleh je slalu msg aku, skang mcm2. 1001 alasan bg pastu bila bertanya skit..mmg naik angin satu badan mcm aku ni dah bunuh kucing dia (issue kucing mmg plg dia pentingkan, sbb tu bg contoh kucing dia) xpe. Allah tu ada. Hari ni hari dia..Ingat lah..manusia xkan sentiasa berada kat atas. Satu hari, bila2 masa je boleh jatuh..Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-83252519620797026042011-11-15T16:50:00.001+08:002011-11-15T16:52:34.042+08:00speechless but this lyric really meant something.I don't know but I believe <br />That some things are meant to be <br />And that you'll make a better me <br />Everyday I love you <br />I never thought that dreams came true <br />But you showed me that they do <br />You know that I learn somethng new <br />Everyday I love you <br />'Cos I believe that destiny <br />Is out of our control (don't you know that I do) <br />And you'll never live until you love <br />With all your heart and soul. <br />It's a touch when I feel bad <br />It's a smile when I get mad <br />All the little things I am <br />Everyday I love you <br />Everyday I love you<br />Everyday I love you <br />'Cos I believe that destiny <br />Is out of our control (don't you know that I do) <br />And you'll never live until you love <br />With all your heart and soul <br />If I asked would you say yes? <br />Together we're the very best <br />I know that I am truly blessed <br />Everyday I love you <br />And I'll give you my best <br />Everyday I love youThoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-11112608583045851752011-11-14T22:21:00.002+08:002011-11-14T22:34:45.412+08:002008-2011few months back before December,28th,2008. Started to feel awkward between us.however I loved those feeling. hummm...mcm2 yg aku dah lalui. Sakit, perit, pedih, panas sume skali dlm satu masa pun aku pernah rasa. Xpe. Aku sabar..ni sume dugaan kat aku. org kate sbb cinta manusia boleh binasa gak. well that's me. Aku lalui sume ni sorang2. Xde siapa pun yg aku ngadu setiap kali di hurt teruk mcm tu. Aku pernah demam satu mlm..duduk dlm bilik berapa hari senyapkan diri..menangis dlm gelap..terduduk atas lantai sampai x tertahan sakit kt hati ni. Ya Allah, punyelah teruk yg aku hadapi ni. Derita sgt. Aku tetap sabar tunggu. X pernah lgsg give up. Apapun skali dia buat. aku senyap aku sabar. selama 24 bulan lebih aku tanggung semua ni.. airmata ni sampai kdg2 dah x sanggup nak keluar..aku tetap tunggu. at last 2 tahun dah berlalu,aku dapat sekejap rasa happy. tp sekejap je..lepas tu dah stahun berlalu sumenye hanya dipinjamkan sekejap je kat aku. Now, I'm feeling so hurt again. Terlampau sakit. Kali ni aku rasa lg teruk dr yg dulu2. Xtau kenapa..tp mmg aku rasa sakit sgt.. Ya Allah, berilah aku kekuatan utk hadapi semua cabaran ni. Lepas ni aku bertaubat..xnk ulang lg kesilapan ni semua. terlampau sakit. I wish I will never fall in love again. Bercinta mmg indah, tp kalau sakit, mmg sakit sgt..derita hidup. Aku tau hati dia hati kering x pernah rasa apa yg aku rasa. sbb slama ni dia je yg buat aku. mcm2 dia dab buat kat aku. mmg derita hati dgn perasaan aku. Ya Allah, aku memohon kpd mu kau lupakanlah ingatan ku semua ini terhadap dia. Lupakanlah ingatan ku ni semua. padamkan lah emmori ini semua. aku dah xnak ingat lgsg apa2 psl aku dgn dia. I wish I could move on..Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-2606529377855728012011-11-14T22:03:00.002+08:002011-11-14T22:10:39.599+08:00how people change drasticallyI don't know how the hell people that u love can change in just in a blink of eyes. this is shit. I know people just using me when they feel they need me. Yeah use me as u wish. but i've my limit. I've totally lost respect to you. This is how u treat me. throw me away as u wish. Call me back lookin for me when ur in need. WTF?? what kind of animal you are? Anyways, were you born like this?? maybe...i don't know. maybe you were not taught about how to appreciate people..or at least treat people nice? Animal is way far kind than you. I've been feeling so hurt since i met you. but i know i'm stupid..cuz i stuck with you. I guess 'was' stuck with you. It's ok..Rite now u know wut, i started to feel a bit irritating in this heart when i hear your name or even to imagine you. I'm sorry. I guess i've lost my patience. I used to adore you my dear past-soon-to-be...now..humm...speechless.. it's plain..and starting to be more plain. Well lucky you I try not to hate you..Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-57810934164019184942011-11-02T10:19:00.002+08:002011-11-02T10:30:19.717+08:00counting the days.As time flies....days changing...i'm counting the days...not much time left. I know I'll be missing you alot..No one could describe this, how i feel. it's sad. so sad. behind every smile i put, there's a frown.. each time i think about this..i cry inside... i don't know how to go on like this... I hope time could stop for a while. I just can't believe it until now that this is happening. How people can change in a second... I love you so much.. im missing you everyday.. Next year will be the year of my sadness. I have to face my life alone.. I swear you won't ever see me again after this..and I don't want to meet you by any chance cuz this hurts me so bad.. im sorry. in a few months, you won't hear bout me anymore..i'll be totally dissappear from your life. bye. i miss you. I love you.Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-81181871069552459972011-10-31T21:41:00.002+08:002011-10-31T21:47:34.073+08:00The end?some relationships ending with happiness..some are not...so here is my story..well, obviously it ends not good..but behind this..i know..there's something good for me will wait.. It hurts me so bad..but for the sake of ur happiness..i've to let u go..it's time..sedihnye...aku tanggung bnda ni sorang2..there's no one beside me..im hugging myself..holding myself tight..crying on my own shoulder..try to comfort my own heart.. Oh Allah..plz let me face this with calm..and strong..please make me strong..this nightmare finally come and haunting me down..all these tears can't help me. Im so sad..i've to go through this alone..Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-9628103278370404472011-10-30T18:27:00.002+08:002011-10-30T18:36:55.935+08:00The last requests.It's true..people change. Sometimes these changes can be totally hurtful..eventho it's the rite for us. So u've made your mind. I respect that and there's nothing i could do to change your mind. When u tell me those hurtful things i never want to hear..it's like a thunder struck rite at my heart. I suddenly couldn't stop the tears that flowing down. I just can't believe it what i've heard. So my last requests:<br />-Tolong stay and teman i sampai 28hb december 2011 (im not sure if u still remember that date). i just nak genapkan 3 tahun kite bersama and our last day that day will be a special day too.<br />-Lagi satu,one day I nak spend time dgn u je. Kite keluar berdua, x kisah mana2.<br />-The last one, if u can,please at least pretend to treat me nicely.<br /><br />that's all. Apepun, I'll always love you. Love u so much. actually there's a lot i want to request but then yg ada ni pun belum tentu u boleh tunaikan ke x..i'll be missing you.Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-17362156207070999332011-10-26T10:57:00.002+08:002011-10-26T10:59:37.232+08:00A hand full of shit...I'm stuck here...dunno what else to do..what to say..im now at the lowest part of my life..it's suck..im sad...oh Allah...plz help me here..im stuck here..need your help and guidance...show me some way.. ;( feel like i've nobody now..Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-36518781254641913252011-06-25T01:46:00.002+08:002011-06-25T02:01:01.978+08:00live life to the fullest pal..Life will be beauty as u wanted when u really make use of it..for me..sometimes this beauty of life will turn around your way when u just don't realize the beauty of it..my story is long enuf just to make a sleepless night for you. I have a lot to tell in this page..i cud not say that my life is worst to live..cuz it has some beauty in it..the beauty is..i have a happy family..a loving and caring parents..a close relationship between siblings..I love it..about the other side of my story..well i'm not that perfect, that so-called perfect like people used to have..I live my life differently rather than my family..no one knows how suck it this. well...i just gotta say..i didn't really make it good in life..but wut i know..i just live with it..and at the same time..i'm trying to change it to the better way. For now..the chapter of my story at the moment will stay just like this..till the time come. I love the people that surround me..especially my beloved family..my beloved one that close to me..and that always help me be with me when im at the lowest level...my buddies..and all. Thanks god that He always help me whenever im in trouble. I know im not that really good (totally)and obey to all the religion things. Im just so thankful tonight..thanks to a wonderful life i have compare to the unfortunate ones. Thank you to all the people around me..I love all of you..may god bless you all.. <br />love..Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-26986176476933366452011-06-17T10:47:00.002+08:002011-06-17T11:23:23.304+08:00daddy..i love you....Dad..happy father's day to you ...I love you so much ayah...Thank u for all the love,care,and education u give to me...thank u for grown me up..u taught me about life..u give a lot of motivation everytime I feel down...U help me to stand back evrytime i fall..U never let go my hand when I try to stand in this world..U give me everything. I love you so much ayah...when I have become a successful person..I have my own money..i will take care of you ibu..I will always be with you and ibu..Love both of u..thank u ibu ayah..<br />Love angah.Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-32560079805473894372011-06-07T20:17:00.000+08:002011-06-07T20:18:43.474+08:00If you're a good kid, read this.Kisah Pensel & Pemadam. Semoga kisah pendek ini mampu memberi kita 1001 pengajaran dan teladan. Dengan perkongsian kisah ini diharap dapat juga dikongsi bersama dengan rakan-rakan anda yang lain. Bacalah dengan penuh penghayatan agar segala intipati kisah ini dapat menyerap ke dalam hati sanubari anda. Bertuahlah kepada anda yang masih mempunyai “dia” atau “mereka”.<br /><br /> <br /><br />PENCIL<br /><br />Saya mohon maaf<br /><br /> <br /><br />ERASER<br /><br />Untuk apa? Kamu tidak buat salah apa-apa. <br /><br /> <br /><br />PENCIL<br /><br />Saya mohon maaf kerana kamu kesakitan disebabkan oleh saya. Setiap kali saya melakukan kesalahan, kamu selalu ada untuk memadamkannya. Tapi setiap kali kamu menghilangkan kesalahan saya, maka kamu kehilangan sebahagian daripada diri kamu sendiri. Kamu menjadi semakin kecil dan semakin kecil setiap masa.<br /><br /> <br /><br />ERASER<br /><br />Betul tu. Tapi saya tidak kisah. Kamu lihat, saya memang dicipta untuk melakukan hal ini. Saya dibuat untuk membantu kamu ketika kamu melakukan sesuatu yang salah. Walaupun satu hari, saya tahu saya akan pergi dan kamu akan menggantikan saya dengan yang baru, saya sebenarnya gembira dengan kerja saya. Jadi tolonglah, berhenti bimbang. Saya tidak suka melihat kamu sedih.<br /><br /> <br /><br /> <br /><br />PENGAJARAN:<br /><br />Ibu Bapa adalah seperti pemadam sedangkan anak-anak mereka adalah pensil. Mereka selalu ada untuk anak-anak mereka, membersihkan kesalahan mereka. Kadang-kadang dalam pada itu, mereka terluka, dan menjadi lebih kecil / lebih tua, dan akhirnya berlalu pergi. Walaupun anak-anak mereka akhirnya akan bertemu dengan seseorang yang baru (pasangan), tetapi ibu bapa tetap gembira dengan apa yang mereka lakukan untuk anak-anak mereka, dan akan sentiasa benci melihat anak-anak kesayangan mereka merasa bimbang, atau sedih … Namun ibu bapa kita semakin kecil dan lebih kecil setiap hari … Suatu hari, semua yang kita akan tinggalkan nanti akan menjadi parutan pemadam dan kenangan dari apa yang kita biasa ada.)<br /><br /> <br /><br /> <br /><br />.” (Quran-17:23)<br /><br />(“Dan Tuhanmu telah perintahkan, supaya engkau tidak menyembah melainkan kepadaNya semata-mata dan hendaklah engkau berbuat baik kepada ibu bapa. Jika salah seorang dari keduanya atau kedua-duanya sekali, sampai kepada umur tua dalam jagaan dan peliharaanmu, maka janganlah engkau berkata kepada mereka (sebarang perkataan kasar) sekalipun perkataan “Ha” dan janganlah engkau menengking menyergah mereka, tetapi katakanlah kepada mereka perkataan yang mulia (yang bersopan santun).Dan hendaklah engkau merendah diri kepada keduanya kerana belas kasihan dan kasih sayangmu dan doakanlah (untuk mereka, dengan berkata): Wahai Tuhanku! Cucurilah rahmat kepada mereka berdua sebagaimana mereka telah mencurahkan kasih sayangnya memelihara dan mendidikku semasa kecil.”Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-56768481155239136402011-06-07T16:26:00.002+08:002011-06-07T17:58:45.205+08:00am I that good to be true? (apa nih??)hahahahha..hari ni aku nak merepek...uhmmmm..pasal....uhmm...ha dapat dah! pasal adik aku accident smlm! bodoh shit punye adik! itulah padah org xnak dgr ckp mak bapak..org kata apa nasihat dan larangan mak bapak tu patut dipatuhi (fuhh ayat aku gempak x) ckp org je kau nahar..blah! hahahaha! ok mcm ni..al-kisahnye...adik aku ni nak bgn sembahyang subuh punye la payah..entah macam mana..pg smlm dia menghilang...tetibe aku tgh syok2 tido....tetibe dgr suara mak aku menjerit2 marah dia..aku ingat dia ada kat rumah ada la buat apa ke..rupenye on the phone..aku mcm dapat agak..ha sah! dia bawak kete tanpa lesen, pastu langgar org moto. makk aihhh! mmg tention lah aku! satu family bermasalah pasal dia. mak aku jgn citer la...mmg dah hanginn satu badan. senang je dia buat. "Kau Tanggung Sendiri, aku xnak masuk campur..cakap mak bapak xnk dgr kan"..ha amik kau...hahahhaa..aku lak call dia..(sibuk nak tau apa jd) hahahahha! aku bg ayat yg sama apa mak aku ckp..tanggung lah ekau sendiri haa..eden xmau masuk campur..padan muko ha! hahah. geram sial..degil nak mampus..ni lah jadi. aku ingatkan accident sikit jela..rupe2nye sampai libat kes polis and ambulance dtg..gile adik aku nih! menyusahkan aku. x pasal2 aku kena pi sana tgk apa jd..hampeh..kesian makcik tu dgn anak pompuan dia..mak bapak aku punyelah hangin..sampai ckp kt polis tu..nak masukkan dia lokap,msukkan lah..lg bagus..tp malangnye..polis kata x perlu sbb xde libat kes kematian.polis tu pun senyum tgk mak aku mengamuk kat adik aku. kena bapak aku lg style...siap plan nak suh polis keluar kan warrant tangkap adik masuk lokap..hahahha! gile ahh...brutal siot parents aku. hahah..adik aku dah sah2 kecut je..tau kau takott haa. so..that evening kitorang pi la rumah mangsa..melawat bg buah2 and duit sikit utk dia..so that's the story..settle dah..humm,saman tetap saman la dr polis..memandu tanpa lesen!!!!! damnn...Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-37863444995823238372011-06-03T09:06:00.003+08:002011-06-03T09:21:36.924+08:00and we try.. we try..we try....The sky seems to be so far away from my sight..it's like getting further away from me..This is life. We can never depends on what we are right now cuz we have our future to prepare for. Never ever consider to put yourself in a comfort zone cuz in just a blink many things could turn around in your world. For me, I consider myself my life as a fragile glass which could anytime break into pieces. I'm trying to prepare myself with a lot of things, but yet you never know in what level the obstacles will occur to you. Sometimes it hard enough for you to face it that you might just wanna give up everything. As i grew up older and older..i faced with a lot of things that alien to me. The life of the people out there. I keep observing a lot of things. My friends' life, my families's life. Sometimes I consider myself as a depending girl who could never really be far away from my family (somehow my mom herself afraid to let me go far away from her) hahahha. My sis always say that. I dunno if it true or not. hahaha. Ok..dunno wut else to merepek in here..i shall better keep observing a lot and spill it here one day. chow!Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-46332442703143723362011-06-03T00:25:00.003+08:002011-06-03T00:29:37.448+08:00people come and go. That's life nahar!hummm...xtau la...lately ni..sbulan ni aku duk pikir wut would happen..wut if someone not here are to be here now..what would happen...life sometimes is too hard to predict. we can't be sure in everything. you know wut, people might say i'm over emotion or wutsoever feeling bout this lost..but hey u know wut..i just too care and love my family sooo much though i don't really physically or mentally show them. I just really hope life could always end in happy ending..what happen now will decide something in future. humm...i shud get back to sleep. nite!Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-80350993215683550582011-06-02T17:46:00.002+08:002011-06-02T18:01:25.743+08:00fuhhh lama x ber bloggin..after a long silence (which aku dgn mangkuk [cub] tu dah ok laa) i decided to spill something here..FYI, i'm listening to justin bieber-down to earth (xyah nak kutuk aku dgr lagu ni ok)..lagu ni buat aku mengingatkan seberapa memori yg sangat pedih dah sedih. OK, i'm not gonna talk about any fancy love anymore..rite now i'm speakin bout a real pain in the ass which my first time losing (i mean it's real) someone in my closest family. in short, lagu ni mengingatkan aku time aku kat kolej..lepas abis kelas time tu..aku perasan ada org call aku time dlm kelas..tp aku buat bodo je..(dlm kelas woi focuslah)..aku tgk mak aku misscall. aku x pikir apa2 time tu..mybe tanya khabar kot (which pelik gak la jarang kot dia nak call aku tanya khabar) hahaha..hummmm..the saddest part...aku terima mesej dr kakak aku..ayat dia pendek tp cukup buat air mata aku keluar time tu gak depan org ramai. aku baca 3,4 kali mesej tu..aku mcm x percaya..hati aku jantung aku berdegup laju..hati aku x keruan..aku xtau nak buat apa..nak menjerit ada, nak terduduk pun ada.."ngah, anak kakak meninggal dlm perut." air mata aku menitis, aku cube tahan. first person aku bgtau, aree (roomate aku) yg kebetulan ada kat situ..aku pun x ingat apa aku ckp kat dia time tu..tp aku tau aku blah trus gi kl..jumpe kakak aku kat hospital. I was the first person jumpe dia kat hospital..she was alone dgn mata bengkak duduk kat sofa tunggu nak register masuk ward. dr jauh tgk kakak aku, aku dah sebak..aku cube utk x menangis..sbb aku nak cube comfortkan dia..(tp hampeh)..aku jalan straight pegi kat dia dgn hati yg hampa..dia nampak aku dgn muke yg sedih gile..and sadis..dia trus panggil aku and peluk aku trus menangis..that was my first time tgk kakak yg aku syg gile dlm keadaan yg sgt sedih..the baby inside her belly was her first child which would be my first niece. aku x sangka selama ni aku duk kira bulan hari..siap kire bile dia expect to give birth for that new coming member..aku sedih..sepanjang dlm krete aku driving pi kl..dlm jam truk tu..aku menangis x terkata..aku sedih..aku br brangan nak celebrate raya tahun ni dgn anak buah aku..hummm, org kate xde rezeki..yg paling sedih, kakak aku n husband dia..i love both of you. plz be strong..i'll always be with u kakak..no matter how worst the fight we had..mcm mana kakak marah angah (sbb aku nakal)..i love always and so much.. and now..3 bulan lebih dah berlalu..kalau anak dia ada lagi..msti skang ni dia dah lahirkan baby tu..aku just rasa sedih..aku tau kakak aku mesti rasa sedih lg..kak, angah will always love you. be strong k! until the last day of my life i will always be with you..you're my idol..luv u!Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-6810400907977685572010-12-15T00:38:00.000+08:002010-12-15T00:41:16.509+08:00If it's love..goes out to you.While everybody else is getting out of bed<br />I'm usually getting in it, I'm not in it to win it<br />And there's a thousand ways you can skin it<br /><br />My feet have been on the floor flat like an idle singer<br />Remember winger, I digress<br />I confess you are the best thing in my life<br /><br />But I'm afraid when I hear stories about a husband and wife<br />There's no happy endings, no Henry Lee<br />But you are the greatest thing about me<br /><br />If it's love<br />And we decide that it's forever<br />No one else could do it better<br /><br />If it's love<br />And we're two birds of a feather<br />Then the rest is just whenever<br /><br />And if I'm addicted to loving you<br />And you're addicted to my love too<br />We can be them two birds of a feather that flock together<br /><br />Love, love<br />Got to have something to keep us together<br />Love, love<br />That's enough for me<br /><br />Took a loan on a house I own<br />Can't be a queen bee without a bee throne<br />I wanna buy you everything except cologne 'cause it's poison<br /><br />We can travel to Spain where the rain falls<br />Mainly on the plain side and sing<br />'Cause it is we can laugh, we can sing<br />Have ten kids and give them everything<br /><br />Hold our cell phones up in the air<br />And just be glad that we made it here alive<br />[- From :http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/train-lyrics/if-it_s-love-lyrics.html -]<br />On a spinning ball in the middle of space<br />I love you from your toes to your face<br /><br />If it's love<br />And we decide that it's forever<br />No one else could do it better<br /><br />If it's love<br />And we're two birds of a feather<br />Then the rest is just whenever<br /><br />And if I'm addicted to loving you<br />And you're addicted to my love too<br />We can be them two birds of a feather that flock together<br /><br />Love, love<br />Got to have something to keep us together<br />Love, love<br />That's enough for me<br /><br />You can move in, I won't ask where you've been<br />'Cause everybody has a past<br />When we're older we'll do it all over again<br /><br />When everybody else is getting out of bed<br />I'm usually getting in it, I'm not in it to win it<br />I'm in it for you<br /><br />If it's love<br />And we're two birds of a feather<br />Then the rest is just whenever<br />Then the rest is just whenever<br /><br />If it's love<br />And we decide that it's forever<br />No one else could do it better<br /><br />And if I'm addicted to loving you<br />And you're addicted to my love too<br />We can be them two birds of a feather that flock together<br /><br />Love, love<br />Got to have something to keep us together<br />Love, love<br />Got to have something to keep us together<br />Love, love<br />That's enough for meThoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-43852913782936871382010-12-14T00:55:00.002+08:002010-12-14T01:03:08.379+08:00i'm missing someone invisible to my life.Don't have much to say right now. But i'm just missing you so bad. really bad. I know maybe you've moved on...happy with your life. But im here still missing you...My mood keeps changing every now and then..I cry, i laugh, i get crazy...just to heal the heart that have been broken thousand times. I don't care how worst the situation i am goin thru rite now..i still miss you so much. I look at the sky, lookin at the moon..wish that u could watch me how am I dying slowly here. I feel so lost. I know I have friends that comfort me, but that can't be the same as having you right beside me. I cover my tears in front of them just to show everyone that I'm strong to go through this alone. Cub, I still, still love you..and will always love you. Please take care. I'm afraid to get near you..I'm afraid of being hurt again. I, now...afraid of love...I'm just too tired being hurt from several years ago..I just want you to take care of yourself and be happy there sayang...take care dearest memory...=)Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-34777534693112359152010-12-11T11:12:00.001+08:002010-12-11T11:15:46.169+08:00don't make any promises to people your love.well, enuf with wut u've put me thru..i feel so bad now. why u hav to take for granted with all the love i gave you? why? I gave u too much until u make it worst. U don't appreciate it. I never betray u, never lie to u, i have been staying alone wit u..no one else inside my heart..but u seems take it easy. I take back for wut i've promised you. sorry cuz u've done this too much for me. I can't take it anymore. I can't stay with someone that never be honest with me.Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-6521769348786530492010-12-11T11:10:00.000+08:002010-12-11T11:11:05.195+08:00song that always reminds me of you.I'll always remember<br />It was late afternoon<br />It lasted forever<br />And ended too soon<br />You were all by yourself<br />Staring up at a dark gray sky<br />I was changed<br /><br />In places no one would find<br />All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)<br />It was then that I realized<br />That forever was in your eyes<br />The moment I saw you cry<br /><br />The moment that I saw you cry<br /><br />It was late in september<br />And I've seen you before (and you were)<br />You were always the cold one<br />But i was never that sure<br />You were all by yourself<br />Staring at a dark gray sky<br />I was changed<br /><br />In places no one would find<br />All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)<br />It was then that I realized<br />That forever was in your eyes<br />The moment I saw you cry<br /><br />I wanted to hold you<br />i wanted to make it go away<br />I wanted to know you<br />I wanted to make your everything, all right....<br /><br />I'll always remember...<br />It was late afternoon...<br />In places no one would find...<br /><br />In places no one would find<br />All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)<br />It was then that I realized<br />That forever was in your eyes<br />The moment I saw you cryThoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-91814616095219973672010-10-02T19:46:00.003+08:002010-10-02T19:48:53.149+08:00hey...it's been quite few days i haven't been updating my blog..lately ni byk spend time dgn cub n my buddies at s.alam.. humm..skang it's time for me to let my cub free a bit..i can't hold u tight anymore cub..i've to let u free..find sumone else..eventhough it hurts me a bit..im sorry..tonite mmg i saje let u go out wit ur frens and those guys..i just want to let u free..im thinking the best for u cub..good luck cub..i hope ur happy there. chill k.Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3181284102277762103.post-6523716312182256712010-09-25T15:23:00.000+08:002010-09-25T15:24:34.942+08:00Best damn lyric!Picture perfect memories, scattered all around the floor.<br />Reaching for the phone cause, I can't fight it any more.<br />And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.<br />For me it happens all the time.<br /><br />It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.<br />I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.<br />And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.<br /><br />Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.<br />Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.<br />And I wonder if I ever cross your mind.<br />For me it happens all the time.<br /><br />It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.<br />I said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now.<br />And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.<br /><br />I guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.<br /><br />It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now.<br />And I said I wouldn't call, but I'm a little drunk and I need you now.<br />And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now.<br /><br />I just need you now.<br /><br />Oh baby I need you now.Thoracohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02979943615087497065noreply@blogger.com0