The end?

some relationships ending with happiness..some are not...so here is my story..well, obviously it ends not good..but behind this..i know..there's something good for me will wait.. It hurts me so bad..but for the sake of ur happiness..i've to let u go..it's time..sedihnye...aku tanggung bnda ni sorang2..there's no one beside me..im hugging myself..holding myself tight..crying on my own shoulder..try to comfort my own heart.. Oh Allah..plz let me face this with calm..and strong..please make me strong..this nightmare finally come and haunting me down..all these tears can't help me. Im so sad..i've to go through this alone..

The last requests.

It's true..people change. Sometimes these changes can be totally hurtful..eventho it's the rite for us. So u've made your mind. I respect that and there's nothing i could do to change your mind. When u tell me those hurtful things i never want to hear..it's like a thunder struck rite at my heart. I suddenly couldn't stop the tears that flowing down. I just can't believe it what i've heard. So my last requests:
-Tolong stay and teman i sampai 28hb december 2011 (im not sure if u still remember that date). i just nak genapkan 3 tahun kite bersama and our last day that day will be a special day too.
-Lagi satu,one day I nak spend time dgn u je. Kite keluar berdua, x kisah mana2.
-The last one, if u can,please at least pretend to treat me nicely.

that's all. Apepun, I'll always love you. Love u so much. actually there's a lot i want to request but then yg ada ni pun belum tentu u boleh tunaikan ke x..i'll be missing you.

A hand full of shit...

I'm stuck here...dunno what else to do..what to say..im now at the lowest part of my life..it's suck..im sad...oh Allah...plz help me here..im stuck here..need your help and guidance...show me some way.. ;( feel like i've nobody now..