it's been a week...

as days move on slowly..i still keep thinking..wondering..wut is this all about. life is so mess up..wondering how my days..my life would go on..never thought dat this could happen to me..the worst month in my life. how bad it feels to love sumone who really doesn't love u..to be the option of sumone i adore.so much. i was listening to all songs that we used to listen together..play the songs over and over again..thinking bout all the memories we hav gone thru. this is worst. just worst. it's not that easy to move on as i thought..can't believe it u just move on just like that. i dunno if u read this, but just so u know...this is wut i feel..so fuckin terrible. i'm tired of pretending that im happy..tired of tryin to chill myself..tired with everything that full of bullshit..all the things that u've put me thru.. i just hope..i could take this heart out and throw it far far far away..