how people change drastically

I don't know how the hell people that u love can change in just in a blink of eyes. this is shit. I know people just using me when they feel they need me. Yeah use me as u wish. but i've my limit. I've totally lost respect to you. This is how u treat me. throw me away as u wish. Call me back lookin for me when ur in need. WTF?? what kind of animal you are? Anyways, were you born like this?? maybe...i don't know. maybe you were not taught about how to appreciate people..or at least treat people nice? Animal is way far kind than you. I've been feeling so hurt since i met you. but i know i'm stupid..cuz i stuck with you. I guess 'was' stuck with you. It's ok..Rite now u know wut, i started to feel a bit irritating in this heart when i hear your name or even to imagine you. I'm sorry. I guess i've lost my patience. I used to adore you my dear past-soon-to-be...now..humm...speechless.. it's plain..and starting to be more plain. Well lucky you I try not to hate you..

counting the days.

As time flies....days changing...i'm counting the days...not much time left. I know I'll be missing you alot..No one could describe this, how i feel. it's sad. so sad. behind every smile i put, there's a frown.. each time i think about this..i cry inside... i don't know how to go on like this... I hope time could stop for a while. I just can't believe it until now that this is happening. How people can change in a second... I love you so much.. im missing you everyday.. Next year will be the year of my sadness. I have to face my life alone.. I swear you won't ever see me again after this..and I don't want to meet you by any chance cuz this hurts me so bad.. im sorry. in a few months, you won't hear bout me anymore..i'll be totally dissappear from your life. bye. i miss you. I love you.

The end?

some relationships ending with happiness..some are not...so here is my story..well, obviously it ends not good..but behind this..i know..there's something good for me will wait.. It hurts me so bad..but for the sake of ur happiness..i've to let u go..it's time..sedihnye...aku tanggung bnda ni sorang2..there's no one beside me..im hugging myself..holding myself tight..crying on my own shoulder..try to comfort my own heart.. Oh Allah..plz let me face this with calm..and strong..please make me strong..this nightmare finally come and haunting me down..all these tears can't help me. Im so sad..i've to go through this alone..

The last requests.

It's true..people change. Sometimes these changes can be totally hurtful..eventho it's the rite for us. So u've made your mind. I respect that and there's nothing i could do to change your mind. When u tell me those hurtful things i never want to hear..it's like a thunder struck rite at my heart. I suddenly couldn't stop the tears that flowing down. I just can't believe it what i've heard. So my last requests:
-Tolong stay and teman i sampai 28hb december 2011 (im not sure if u still remember that date). i just nak genapkan 3 tahun kite bersama and our last day that day will be a special day too.
-Lagi satu,one day I nak spend time dgn u je. Kite keluar berdua, x kisah mana2.
-The last one, if u can,please at least pretend to treat me nicely.

that's all. Apepun, I'll always love you. Love u so much. actually there's a lot i want to request but then yg ada ni pun belum tentu u boleh tunaikan ke x..i'll be missing you.

A hand full of shit...

I'm stuck here...dunno what else to do..what to say..im now at the lowest part of my life..it's suck..im sad...oh Allah...plz help me here..im stuck here..need your help and guidance...show me some way.. ;( feel like i've nobody now..

live life to the fullest pal..

Life will be beauty as u wanted when u really make use of it..for me..sometimes this beauty of life will turn around your way when u just don't realize the beauty of it..my story is long enuf just to make a sleepless night for you. I have a lot to tell in this page..i cud not say that my life is worst to live..cuz it has some beauty in it..the beauty is..i have a happy family..a loving and caring parents..a close relationship between siblings..I love it..about the other side of my story..well i'm not that perfect, that so-called perfect like people used to have..I live my life differently rather than my family..no one knows how suck it this. well...i just gotta say..i didn't really make it good in life..but wut i know..i just live with it..and at the same time..i'm trying to change it to the better way. For now..the chapter of my story at the moment will stay just like this..till the time come. I love the people that surround me..especially my beloved family..my beloved one that close to me..and that always help me be with me when im at the lowest level...my buddies..and all. Thanks god that He always help me whenever im in trouble. I know im not that really good (totally)and obey to all the religion things. Im just so thankful tonight..thanks to a wonderful life i have compare to the unfortunate ones. Thank you to all the people around me..I love all of you..may god bless you all..
love..

daddy..i love you....

Dad..happy father's day to you ...I love you so much ayah...Thank u for all the love,care,and education u give to me...thank u for grown me up..u taught me about life..u give a lot of motivation everytime I feel down...U help me to stand back evrytime i fall..U never let go my hand when I try to stand in this world..U give me everything. I love you so much ayah...when I have become a successful person..I have my own money..i will take care of you ibu..I will always be with you and ibu..Love both of u..thank u ibu ayah..
Love angah.